Ruth Writes is a 30-something Liverpool based blog covering mid-size fashion, pescatarian food and beauty.
I rarely blog about my weight as I often feel a bit daft and try to keep it as private as possible.
But seeing as I blog about food so much I just wanted to write a diary entry style post today about my attitude to weight loss and dieting in general.
I think I still think in my head that I’m bigger than I am. During my time at university 2006-2010 I steadily gained weight thanks to a bad diet that consisted of pints of cider, pasta for every meal and takeaways about 3/4 times a week – after a night out.
I felt concious of my size but I still dressed how I did before I gained the weight. Once I’d moved back home it was time to change. When I compare the two blocks of images below, I can see a physical difference in my shape and my face. But in my head, and when I look in the mirror, I’m still that girl. I still beat myself up over food, I still get annoyed with myself for having a serious nachos addiction. But I know I need to let it go. Yes I still want to lose weight and move down a stone bracket, but it’s not all bad. That’s what I think I’m trying to say with this post.
I’m going on my first beach holiday next month in 4 years and I want to feel great in a bikini. Truly comfortable. So I’m back following Slimming World as it works the best for me and I’ve taken up exercising at home. Carly Rowena knows how to make you sweat!
I’m nervous to press publish on this post but I just wanted to write down everything that’s going on in my head and help me to feel great in Morroco next month!